I can hardly believe my last post was Christmas Eve and now it is almost the Spring Equinox! It's a beautiful time for the seeds we planted in late Fall and early Winter to begin their emergence.
An enormous part of my fertility journey has been sinking into the natural rhythms of life. The seasons, daylight hours, daily, monthly and yearly cycles. Feeling into these rhythms requires a slowing down, getting quiet.
I have found many allies on this journey, some in person and some in books. Dr. Randine Lewis is a fertility specialist whose focus is definitely more Eastern Medicine and energy healing. She is one of the practioners my fertility specialist acupuncturist (amazing, down-to-earth, supportive, no b.s., in my corner and even has my husband liking acupuncture!) studied with during her training.
After being steered away from "The Infertility Cure" (too much detailed info for my I-want-an-answer-and-then-to-fix-it mind), I picked up a copy of "The Way of the Fertile Soul." I have found that most of the solutions that work for me in all of my life (fertility, romance, finance, self-esteem, body image) are spiritual solutions. This book is chock full of them.
Dr. Lewis' book is a beautiful map to cultivating fertility and creativity - creation of life that may manifest in surprising ways. Along with about a dozen other experiences that I've been wanting to write about and which I will have to save for another time (another month, another year) her book brought to the surface a longing I didn't even know I had.
My healing practice is ever inspiring me to learn more, to bring more to my clients and to dive more deeply into my own emotional, spiritual, mental and physical health. The deep desire to conceive a child continually challenges me to walk my talk in all aspects of my well being. I realized I wanted to go deeper into all of what I hold dear, healing, self-care, integrative medicine, lifestyle impact on health, the science behind my intuition.
All of this to say, I have been accepted to a Master's Degree program in Acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine and will begin my studies this May!
When I align myself with my heart's longings and am willing to express my creative potential, I am amazed at what unfolds. It's not entirely out of the blue that acupuncture would appeal to me. I have seen some incredible practitioner's over the last 15 years of my life. One helped me to restore the entire foundation of my health. One walked me gently into the beginning of my fertility journey and one has become my current trusted ally and (hopefully) future colleague.
Each one of them has trusted in my body's ability to balance and heal itself. Each one has supported my wholeness. Each one has reflected my intuition and provided a space of great nurturing and care as they help me to navigate the sometimes overwhelming and chaotic world of Western Medicine. These medicine women (along with my yoga teachers, and spiritual counselors, space holders, healers, dance teachers, and bodyworkers) have helped me to strengthen my personal foundation.
As my container grows, I have more to offer my family, my friends and my clients. The more connected I am to myself, the more I have to offer the world.
I have no idea what the next few years will look like. I will continue to maintain my healing practice, although the hours will certainly change. (Feel free to email me with any questions or for appointments). If the last few months are any indication, I'm guessing the blog posts will be few and far between. There are so many experiences and resources I was looking forward to sharing. I imagine they will come out in time. Although, who knows?!
That's just it with life. Who knows?! We show up. We align ourselves with the moment as much as possible, and just when you think you know exactly where you are headed, something new arises. For the next few years it looks as if many of my moments will be in the classroom. I am looking forward to seeing how it all unfolds.